How Can I Not Feeling Emo Right Now?

Within less than three months' time, I will be turning 22.

And yet, I am still a temp staff, although I signed a 3 months contract with Lhub.

But still, low pay with no benefits.

I understand partly the reason is my reputation isn't that good (cause of some incident).

So I told myself, if by the end of the contract and they still don't convert me to perm staff,

Then it is time for me to get a new job AGAIN!

Of course within these three months I will prove to them that I can do it!

In character wise, I am proud to say that I have changed.

But so what if my temper have changed to a better one?

I am still fickle minded and have a heck care attitude.

No life, no aim, no achievement.

Especially my language, it sucks.

Grammar mistake, spelling mistake, pronunciation wrong, etc.

A BIG BIG SIGH!~
Wendy Mei, why are you such a loser???

Or maybe I did not put in enough effort?

Sometimes.. I am just wondering do I even have a future?